Too long.

It's been too long for alot of things. Too long in the same old kitchen, making money off of the dieing. Its been too long since I have talked to old friends. It's been too long since Iv'e wrote.

Today wasn't an ordinary day, old feelings and regrets were awakened for one reason or another. Today was a time for reflection in a sence; to bury a hatchett and realize that to dwell on things of the past is a rule of my own that I have been breaking for so long. Everything that happens will have a deffinate outcome later in life.

People change with time, regaurdless of how satisfied you are with yourself and your well being. A connection with someone will always be there, despite the departure of friendship, no matter how deep the roots go. That connection is human nature; human nature being a branch of mother nature means that theres not a god damn thing you and I can do about it.

What goes on in our minds is as personal as we want it to be, and so are our feelings. Unless, of coarse, these feelings are shared by another person, or a group of people. Then, there is no doubt of that connection; its almost like an electric current. In the end, that connection will be fulfilled, with a friend or enemy, it's just your choice how to accept it.

When everyone around you says no, no, no, naturally that's what you'll think. The gift in the lesson is this: the little voice in the back of your head, yes that one, its YOURS. And lets just say thats the only one you need to listen to. Thats instict, your own right and wrong, your own past experiences, the reasons for connections.

Damn I feel better now.