Big happenings.

Noize is slowly planting its foot; and we'll stand like a brick wall as long as we can. So much support from so many people; thank you.

The past is finally gone. The past eats and eats until there is nothing left, and when the past finally retreats; when you have finally gained the upper hand in the fight, it still wont be over. The past is something that can always come creeping back. Old habits and false pre-tenses will never be erased from memory, but it's the decision to face the facts and continue on. However, never say that the battle has been "won", because surely, no one can simply "win" the fight with the past; put your guard down for a second and the future will hit you harder than the past ever could have. This morning I feel like I'm on top of it.


Ci manchi!

Dreams.

For the longest time, my dreams and nightmares have been disappearing into the darkness before I can even comprehend what was going on. Hardly ever do the images and feelings stay with my head anymore after I awake. Except for this morning.

All the sudden I know 75 percent of the dream I had last night. We we're auctioning off a canvas for a good cause. The family was there..except with a different energy and vibe; a good one at that.

I think time away from a person is one of the best indicators. Time to think and sort through each individual aspect of what things mean. I've said it before, and it's coming again...it's the quality of life here people; being happy with where your at and the people around you; from family to foes.

What dreams actually mean is out of my hands, and frankly I don't care. For me; it's just re-assuring that a positive dream was remembered. It takes certain emotions to retain the feelings from a dream after you wake up...and there's nothing better then waking up with a smile.

It's a good start to the week (even though its Wednesday); being off for 3 days chewed me up and spit me out. It's that much closer to Friday, which is that much closer to next week.




5 left..

It just takes piece of mind.

When it's crazy at home; it's a trainwreck. Sometimes, if you don't get away, you will start to loose control. Nothing compares to going from this place we call home to silence. That's the biggest thing. No sierens, honking horns, screeching tires, rice burners...etc. Just the natural sounds up there, which is usually next to nothing; the wind filtering through each and every tall pine, a loon crying out accross the lake, and even the crack and pop of a freshly lit campfire.

Central doesn't even know what it's in for this summer.

There is always the first day back; pulling off of route 1 and getting right into the mindset; the grind. But home still provides it's comforts; a good Italian Sub and the family ready to re-cap the events enjoyed by all.

We're on a six day wait...the worst is over now; anticipation circles my head day in, day out.

Leverage is everything

From day to day life, or a lifetime of battles; leverage is our best friend.

Working in the kitchen is one of the most dangerous places. There's always mixing, folding, whisking, pouring, searing, cutting, chopping, frying, boiling, yelling and most of all...your supposed to keep a smile on your face. Leverage can be literal such as using a stool to get a higher angle on stirring something in a bowl or, leverage can just simply be having to go into work at 11:00am instead of 8:00am. Regardless, find leverage in everything you do.

Get the upper hand. We have the upper hand.

Not much to write about; not too insightful this morning. Its also going to be 90 degrees, mother nature is giving us a summer appetizer, and I'm going to be preparing exceptional meals for ungrateful swine. The way the world spins will never cease to amaze me. Fight that fucking swine-- from the legal system to your local boys in blue....leverage people; think about it.

Atleast the sun's out.

Didn't want to face the day today. Two weeks is a long time; I'm already trying to fill the gap of days in my head with trips and work, just making sure I don't have enough time to let my mind start working against me. That's probably one of my biggest enemy's. Out of everthings Iv'e lost, I probably miss my mind the most.

Sometimes a Monday is an extention of the weekend, what the hell right. When Tuesday rolls around, it feels like monday; there's already one day gone.

Fight that swine...you will hear it over and over during the summer. Wick was succesfull in his riddle yesterday. Let's take that as a sign of brute intelligence and craftsmanship; and he's on board with us for the invasion.

Noize made round' the world...possible new slogan for the site. Also...optional new variation of the "Stix to the Brix" -- "Wood$ to the Hood$"

Well... the morning is burning away....dont quite know what time it is accross the pond. Reguardless, we await the return... and damn, this summer should me a memorable one.

Its time.

When I say this I mean it. It was a long weekend, but not a normal one. Noize is well on its way.

Woke up on friday to a quote that describes my mindset going into this weekend.

--" Id rather make my name than inherit it".

To put it plainly, dont just take what your given, create your own name, your own backing.

A backing is a foundation, something to "fall back" on. No, im not talking about being smart with jobs and what not, making sure you have somthing to go back to incase life fails you. In my eyes, life doesnt fail or pass anyone, it's a matter of what the person can take from life. Yes, if it all goes south, if we all loose the five years of passion; I can survive. Everything in my power will be done to make sure Noize Clothing is put on the map as a major east coast company. There is my statement; anyone that chooses to dissprove that notion can just wait for the invasion.

$ ? $

The rich may get richer, and the poor get poorer, but the happy are truly the fortunate ones. Nothing else should matter. Obviously this isn't a possibility due to the fact that we are a society driven on sex, violence, and greed. In no way am I perfect, nor do I completely denounce alot of the cultural norms that have become common. HOWEVER, to distinguish yourself from those things which you believe in and go against is a virtue. Don't listen to the swine, for christ sakes, does anyone decide what the want to wear, watch, listen to, read, even purchase? (hardly)

What's wrong with looking at the situation around and saying "fuck this"; nothing in perticular. It's alright to challenge your surroundings!!!! Everything this country was buiult on is from challenging cultural norms and scoiety's big bad thumb pressing down on the one's who haven't a choice. In our time, it is a case of the $$ up top....that swine. The swine that have royally lined us up with a stool and did the deed. As far as I'm concerned there are no excuses. Around here, we make due for ourselves, or atleast my primary group does.

The big picture get's bigger everyday. The division among people is so great, yet so damn close. When you think it all makes sence, even for five minutes if your mind say's "oh thats why"; it won't be long. Everyday is going to provide problems, increasing problems with more and more drastic consequences. Hold on.

Take nothing for advantage for christ sakes.

Tue. morning....busy day. 5_3_ (anticipation).

The adventure is here.

It's summer, what can I say. Finally, after this winter and all of its torture there is some light. Not in the sence of new life for wildlife and the woods, but new a new confidence. It's all there for a taking, just open your eyes.

A clean sweep last night for everyone from the penthouses to the slums; it was Boston's night.

Waiting isn't a possibility; its the planning and anticipation that counts. Find confidence in whatever you can; regaurdless. Most of all, appreciate what you have obtained, and do everything in your power to hold on tight.

Monday, Monday.....Here's a tip of the hat to winter and all of it's fury:

We'll be here to meet you again.

Gonna take a freight train, down to the station, and I don't care where it goes.

Murphy's law will come in to effect. When things can go wrong they will, when theres doubt, there is always possibilty of failure. Failure in any sence of the word; it depends on your goals.
My first instinct this friday morning was to get up and go...just fucking leave. Everyone does it anyway's, they just dont go as far as I want to. This place get's to me, and when closure is finally found; that too is taken away.
Confusion and chance have had a big influence the past few weeks on my mood & attitude; the change was welcomed. ANY change was welcome, and maybe thats it, it's what we all need, a change of pace compared to what 'they' tell us to do.

Why do other people decided our future, who decided what quality of life IS anyways? Education kills me.

I am no fortunate one. Spit on the silver spoon. The future holds no bounds, but the present does, and for good reason. Nothing gets through my head without a damn good reason. Why do we always have to settle things NOW?; for fear of losing it. And losing somthing that you've been working for without yourself even knowing makes everything that much more of a whirlwind of shit. Because after somethings gone, and there's nothing that can be done...then you realize how important it was. If the loss results in no feelings at all, then you didn't want/need it that bad. When your dissrupted inside, deep down, knowing that what you lost was an increadibly positive thing, all you can do is shake your head. What makes it allw rap into a tight little bow is when you dont know till it's gone. It's the nature of the beast.

Happiness comes in the strangest forms. From a left handed cigarette or the best vanilla cupcake w. chocolate frosting and rainbow sprinkles, it's all what makes you tick. When a person knows what they want, it's not always the easiest things to execute, all someone can hope for is a chance. And by god if you see it then grab it. The last thing anyone needs to feel is the feeling of losing something they never knew was important to their way of life. You can't always get what you want...but if you try sometimes, you just might find...you get what you need. Find what you need before its GONE all togeather. And this battle begins....

-Just some thoughts going into the weekend.

Hump Day.

Its not the best of weather, but it's alright. One exam to go untill total dis-connect from further education. That summer sun is right around the corner,;oh the summer sun!

Not sure how I'm going to regulate posting yet, who knows how many posts will go up throughout the day...

5_3_ tonight. Bruins and Celtics, looking forward to it.

Taking a bad situation and making it right, that's what matters. No matter the outcome, if you can take a situation and do your best to turn it around, in the only way you know how it is a gift. Why? Human nature...when potential is seen through tired eyes, the beaten and battered get new strength.

THIS IS IT!!!

I'm BACK!! Yes, it has been almost two months since my last post. Why so long?..the winter was a bitch, and the waltz into spring was more like a stagger. Everythings alright now though...two final's to go and summer. The word brings promise and oppertunity to mind.
This is what writing's about; putting on an old CD and just writing. I plan for an eventful spring. With the Noize site due to be up soon..new T-Shirts, stickers, and a friggen legal document that say's its our's. The Noize logo is ours, and so is the company name "Noize Clothing"; got it trademarked finally.My drumming is comming along nicely, some plans for that also...oh plans, plans.

"Its time to make something of ourselves."

Spring has finally come, it's the blessed month of fucking May. Here we are, finishing off our battle stance at school, and plotting the upcoming summer months. Its a time in life where you have to grasp what is in front of you, and not just listen to whatever everyone else is telling you. Listen to the people who know you best. Go with your heart.

"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all"
-SDN
And that my friends is it. Here's a new summer, new members of this group we call "FAMILY". New experiences, places, and people to meet and greet. It is one thing to just accept what is given to you, and accept that what you have gained is the extent of it. The key is, there's always more. Right is right. If youre the person that see's a door when its open, and wonder's whats behind it, life is serving you correctly. Take a chance, make a memory, build a friendship, a relationship, a kinship. Nothing compares to family, and home.
This is what we represent, this is why we're here.

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