Gonna take a freight train, down to the station, and I don't care where it goes.

Murphy's law will come in to effect. When things can go wrong they will, when theres doubt, there is always possibilty of failure. Failure in any sence of the word; it depends on your goals.
My first instinct this friday morning was to get up and go...just fucking leave. Everyone does it anyway's, they just dont go as far as I want to. This place get's to me, and when closure is finally found; that too is taken away.
Confusion and chance have had a big influence the past few weeks on my mood & attitude; the change was welcomed. ANY change was welcome, and maybe thats it, it's what we all need, a change of pace compared to what 'they' tell us to do.

Why do other people decided our future, who decided what quality of life IS anyways? Education kills me.

I am no fortunate one. Spit on the silver spoon. The future holds no bounds, but the present does, and for good reason. Nothing gets through my head without a damn good reason. Why do we always have to settle things NOW?; for fear of losing it. And losing somthing that you've been working for without yourself even knowing makes everything that much more of a whirlwind of shit. Because after somethings gone, and there's nothing that can be done...then you realize how important it was. If the loss results in no feelings at all, then you didn't want/need it that bad. When your dissrupted inside, deep down, knowing that what you lost was an increadibly positive thing, all you can do is shake your head. What makes it allw rap into a tight little bow is when you dont know till it's gone. It's the nature of the beast.

Happiness comes in the strangest forms. From a left handed cigarette or the best vanilla cupcake w. chocolate frosting and rainbow sprinkles, it's all what makes you tick. When a person knows what they want, it's not always the easiest things to execute, all someone can hope for is a chance. And by god if you see it then grab it. The last thing anyone needs to feel is the feeling of losing something they never knew was important to their way of life. You can't always get what you want...but if you try sometimes, you just might find...you get what you need. Find what you need before its GONE all togeather. And this battle begins....

-Just some thoughts going into the weekend.